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Dec. 4th, 2007 | 05:15 pm

"No, no, no, you're doing it wrong!" The slender figure that was previously watching, grabbed the eyeliner from out of Gabe's hand."Stand up,"Gabe did as he was told and William took a seat where Gabe previously was and applied the make up the correct.way."Now, you try."Gabe sat back down, and did it correctly.This was a day-to-day thing. To be honest, Gabe just liked watching William's mouth that wide open.

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im on aim

Nov. 11th, 2007 | 06:38 pm

omg im on aim

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Jul. 23rd, 2007 | 12:04 pm

We sat there next to the fire, my hand in his, my brother next to me, with his sister next to him.

A pale figure walked by, my brother must have recognized him from basketball earlier because I heard him say, “Hey, you still drunk?”

Dumb 11 year olds.

The figure came out from the darkness and proudly proclaimed he didn’t drink or smoke or do drugs or anything, just simple enjoyed acting like an idiot from time to time.

I chuckled and he left.

We sat there a few moments longer before his mom came walking by with his two younger sisters.

“Hey Gerard,” she called, her voice sweet and calming, perfect at ten o clock at night.

“I better go,”
He stood up and let go of my hand.
“I’ll go with you,”

I had completely ignored my dads words earlier “I want you guys to go back, they can come, but there’s just too much going on right now.”

I stood up and entangled our fingers again; his touches sent shivers down my spin and kind of made me have to pee.

We walked down the road to his campsite before stopping to say good-bye a little bit before. I hugged him, feeling the sweat that was still there from our soccer game earlier, I loved that. It sounds weird, but I loved the warm sweaty feeling of his body. I moved my head up and connected our lips; a feeling of over joy had just come over my body and I moved again to hug him. Our lips connected once more, tongues colliding into a wet sloppy kiss, before he pulled away.

“You better get going, I don’t want your dad mad at me.”

He was leaving the next day, I didn’t want to leave him, I wanted to stay here in this moment forever.

I nodded, “Yeah,”

And with that I walked away, smiling for a reason I had never smiled for before.

“That took a long time,”
“Shut up,”

A Few Weeks Later

I don’t remember it at all.
In truth, it all seems like a dream.
Something that never happened, that it’s just what I wanted to happen and I’m imagining it.
I haven’t seen him for a few weeks, almost a month actually.
Every single day I regret not kissing him the day he left.
I have no idea why I didn’t.
Maybe it was because my parents could see us from across the campground.
Maybe my emotions had gotten the best of me.
Either way, I would do anything to go back to that morning, to know that it was real, to still be able to taste him.
He lives an hour away.
The only contact we have is messaging, and every other weekend, he doesn’t even have that.
I plan on getting his number soon.
I even have a ring tone for him especially already.
It just needs a number.
I gave him my home number.
But I guess he’s scared my dad will pick up.
He thinks my dad hates him.
We are celebrating our one-month anniversary in a week.
It sounds so stupid that I’m excited about that, but hey, he’s my first boyfriend.
If I could get my friend to listen to me, her one-year and my one-month would be on the same dates.
But no, she’s convinced her and her boyfriend started going out on the fourth, not the second.
I have it written down in my live journal, it was the second.
I want to do something special for him, but everyone has told me my ideas are too special for just one month.
A play list, I was told that’s more for a year.
Maybe I’ll give him this.
I sent him another story yesterday.
He’s at his dads so he won’t get it until Monday.
I’m worried he won’t care.
It’s a stupid worry, but I’m known for having those.

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Jul. 12th, 2007 | 07:52 pm

001."All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion, and desire." - Aristotle. 002."I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and that it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions." - Dorothy Day. 003."People who ask our advice almost never take it. Yet we should never refuse to give it, upon request, for it often helps us to see our own way more clearly." - Brendan Francis. 004."Your very silence shows you agree." - Euripides. 005."Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change." - Malcolm X.
006."I happen to feel that the degree of a person's intelligence is directly reflected by the number of conflicting attitudes she can bring to bear on the same topic." - Lisa Alther. 007."Order is not pressure which is imposed on society from without, but an equilibrium which is set up from within." - Jose Ortega y Gasset. 008."The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw." - Havelock Ellis. 009."The words that enlighten the soul are more precious than jewels." - Hazrat Inayat Khan. 010."The first question I ask myself when something doesn't seem to be beautiful is why do I think it's not beautiful. And very shortly you discover that there is no reason." - John Cage.
011."Rarely do great beauty and great virtue dwell together." - Petrarch. 012."Man is what he believes." - Anton Chekhov. 013."The fact that a believer is happier than a skeptic is no more to the point than the fact that a drunken man is happier than a sober one." - George Bernard Shaw. 014."Men willingly believe what they wish." - Julius Caesar. 015."Oh, what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to believe." - Laurence J. Peter.
016."Unless you believe, you will not understand." - Saint Augustine. 017."There is no cure for birth and death save to enjoy the interval." - George Santayana. 018."We are born charming, fresh and spontaneous and must be civilized before we are fit to participate in society." - Judith Martin. 019."Be sure that it is not you that is mortal, but only your body. For that man whom your outward form reveals is not yourself; the spirit is the true self, not that physical figure which and be pointed out by your finger." - Cicero . 020."Of one thing I am certain, the body is not the measure of healing - peace is the measure." - George Melton.
021."The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity." - Dorothy Parker. 022."Every hero becomes a bore at last." - Ralph Waldo Emerson. 023."Cats regard people as warmblooded furniture." - Jacquelyn Mitchard. 024."It's choice - not chance - that determines your destiny." - Jean Nidetch. 025."The sufferings that fate inflicts on us should be borne with patience, what enemies inflict with manly courage." - Thucydides.
026."Change is the constant, the signal for rebirth, the egg of the phoenix." - Christina Baldwin. 027."It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not." - James Gordon. 028."The more things change, the more they remain... insane." - Michael Fry and T. Lewis. 029."Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power." - Abraham Lincoln. 030."A person reveals his character by nothing so clearly as the joke he resents." - Georg Christoph Lichtenberg.
031."People with courage and character always seem sinister to the rest." - Hermann Hesse. 032."You cannot dream yourself into a character; you must hammer and forge yourself one." - James A. Froude. 033."The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child, a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity." - Francis Maitland Balfour. 034."It is absurd to divide people into good and bad. People are either charming or tedious." - Oscar Wilde. 035."People who get nostalgic about childhood were obviously never children." - Bill Watterson.
036."I must take issue with the term 'a mere child,' for it has been my invariable experience that the company of a mere child is infinitely preferable to that of a mere adult." - Fran Lebowitz. 037."Civilization begins with order, grows with liberty, and dies with chaos." - Will Durant. 038."Any great truth can -- and eventually will -- be expressed as a cliche -- a cliche is a sure and certain way to dilute an idea. For instance, my grandmother used to say, 'The black cat is always the last one off the fence.' I have no idea what she meant, but at one time, it was undoubtedly true." - Solomon Short. 039."Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen." - Albert Einstein. 040."If an idea's worth having once, it's worth having twice." - Tom Stoppard.
041."God creates men, but they choose each other." - Niccolo Machiavelli. 042."Incompetents invariably make trouble for people other than themselves." - Larry McMurtry. 043."Self-conceit may lead to self-destruction." - Aesop. 044."I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence, but it comes from within. It is there all the time." - Anna Freud. 045."Every time you don't follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness." - Shakti Gawain.
046."Courage is the price that Life exacts for granting peace." - Amelia Earhart. 047."The bravest thing you can do when you are not brave is to profess courage and act accordingly." - Corra Harris. 048."I would rather be a coward than brave because people hurt you when you are brave." - E. M. Forster. 049."Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear." - Mark Twain. 050."I started concentrating so hard on my vision that I lost sight." - Robin Green.
051."The noun of self becomes a verb. This flashpoint of creation in the present moment is where work and play merge." - Stephen Nachmanovitch. 052."What we have to do is to be forever curiously testing new opinions and courting new impressions." - Walter Pater. 053.Idealism is what precedes experience; cynicism is what follows." - David T. Wolf. 054."Cynicism is not realistic and tough. It's unrealistic and kind of cowardly because it means you don't have to try." - Peggy Noonan. 055."If you cannot get rid of the family skeleton, you may as well make it dance." - George Bernard Shaw.
056."Almost nobody dances sober, unless they happen to be insane." - H. P. Lovecraft. 057."You should make a point of trying every experience once, excepting incest and folk dancing." - Sir Arnold Bax. 058."Death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives." - A. Sachs. 059."It's no accident that the church and the graveyard stand side by side. The city of the dead sleeps encircled by the city of the living." - Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider. 060."The dead cannot cry out for justice; it is a duty of the living to do so for them." - Lois McMaster Bujold.
061."Never knock on Death's door: ring the bell and run away! Death really hates that!" - Matt Frewer. 062."Human history becomes more and more a race between education and catastrophe." - H. G. Wells. 063."The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want." - Ben Stein. 064."When it is not necessary to make a decision, it is necessary not to make a decision." - Lord Falkland. 065."Victory attained by violence is tantamount to a defeat, for it is momentary." - Mahatma Gandhi.
066."Luck is the residue of design." - Branch Rickey. 067."There are two tragedies in life. One is not to get your heart's desire. The other is to get it." - George Bernard Shaw. 068."Man is the only animal whose desires increase as they are fed; the only animal that is never satisfied." - Henry George. 069."Some prices are just too high, no matter how much you may want the prize. The one thing you can't trade for your heart's desire is your heart." - Lois McMaster Bujold. 070."We desire nothing so much as what we ought not to have." - Publilius Syrus.
071."Those who restrain desire, do so because theirs is weak enough to be restrained." - William Blake. 072."Dignity and love do not blend well, nor do they continue long together." - Ovid. 073."I show you doubt, to prove that faith exists." - Robert Browning. 074."Hope is a waking dream." - Aristotle. 075."Dreams that do come true can be as unsettling as those that don't." - Brett Butler.
076."Human beings have an inalienable right to invent themselves." - Germaine Greer. 077."They say dreams are the windows of the soul--take a peek and you can see the inner workings, the nuts and bolts." - Henry Bromel. 078."What if nothing exists and we're all in somebody's dream?" - Woody Allen. 079."Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut." - Ernest Hemingway 080."Electricity is actually made up of extremely tiny particles called electrons, that you cannot see with the naked eye unless you have been drinking." - Dave Barry
081."The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed." - Carl Jung 082."Never explain--your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway." - Elbert Hubbard. 083."The enemy is anybody who's going to get you killed, no matter which side he's on." - Joseph Heller. 084."Friends may come and go, but enemies accumulate." - Thomas Jones. 085."That all men are equal is a proposition which, at ordinary times, no sane individual has ever given his assent." - Aldous Huxley.
086."I have discovered that all human evil comes from this, man's being unable to sit still in a room." - Blaise Pascal. 087."The belief in a supernatural source of evil is not necessary; men alone are quite capable of every wickedness." - Joseph Conrad. 088."Every sweet has its sour; every evil its good." - Ralph Waldo Emerson. 089."It's not enough that we do our best; sometimes we have to do what's required." - Sir Winston Churchill. 090."Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterwards." - Vernon Sanders Law.
091."Facts are facts and will not disappear on account of your likes." - Jawaharlal Nehru. 092."Success isn't permanent, and failure isn't fatal." - Mike Ditka . 093."Try as hard as we may for perfection, the net result of our labors is an amazing variety of imperfectness. We are surprised at our own versatility in being able to fail in so many different ways." - Samuel McChord Crothers. 094."Good people are good because they've come to wisdom through failure." - William Saroyan. 095."Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth." - Henry David Thoreau.
096."Glory is fleeting, but obscurity is forever." - Napoleon Bonaparte. 097."They say that blood is thicker than water. Maybe that's why we battle our own with more energy and gusto than we would ever expend on strangers." - David Assael. 098."Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one." - Jane Howard. 099."A family is a unit composed not only of children but of men, women, an occasional animal, and the common cold." - Ogden Nash. 100."In life we don’t get what we want, we get in life what we are. If we want more we have to be able to be more, in order to be more you have to face rejection." - Farrah Gray.
101."There are nights when the wolves are silent and only the moon howls." - George Carlin. 102."Fear is the tax that conscience pays to guilt.
- George Sewell.
103."Forgive many things in others; nothing in yourself." - Ausonius. 104."'Tis the most tender part of love, each other to forgive." - John Sheffield. 105."No one forgives with more grace and love than a child." - by Unknown.
106."Pray you now, forget and forgive." - William Shakespeare. 107."Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." - Alan Dean Foster. 108."Do not protect yourself by a fence, but rather by your friends." - Czech Proverb. 109."Nobody sees a flower - really - it is so small it takes time - we haven't time - and to see takes time, like to have a friend takes time." - Georgia O'Keeffe. 110."It’s the friends you can call up at four a.m. that matter." - Marlene Dietrich.
111."This only is denied to God: the power to undo the past." - Agathon. 112."We cannot control the evil tongues of others; but a good life enables us to disregard them." - Cato the Elder. 113."Gratitude is born in hearts that take time to count up past mercies." - Charles E. Jefferson. 114."Grief is the agony of an instant, the indulgence of grief the blunder of a life." - Benjamin Disraeli. 115."The greatest griefs are those we cause ourselves." - Sophocles.
116."Do not weep; do not wax indignant. Understand." - Baruch Spinoza. 117."Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why." - Eddie Cantor. 118."I am a kind of paranoiac in reverse. I suspect people of plotting to make me happy." - J. D. Salinger. 119."It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not." - Andre Gide. 120."When dealing with people, let us remember we are not dealing with creatures of logic. We are dealing with creatures of emotion, creatures bustling with prejudices and motivated by pride and vanity." - Dale Carnegie.
121."Health is not simply the absence of sickness." - Hannah Green. 122."We can't all be heroes because somebody has to sit on the curb and clap as they go by." - Will Rogers. 123."Everyone is necessarily the hero of his own life story." - John Barth. 124."Not going home is already like death." - E. Catherine Tobler. 125."A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it." - George Moore.
126."Any fool can tell the truth, but it requires a man of some sense to know how to lie well." - Samuel Butler. 127."Honor does not have to be defended." - Robert J. Sawyer. 128."Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: You don't give up." - Anne Lamott. 129."The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think." - Horace Walpole. 130."An idealist is one who, on noticing that a rose smells better than a cabbage, concludes that it will also make better soup." - H. L. Mencken.
131."Ignorance is the night of the mind, but a night without moon and star." - Confucius. 132."Imagination is more important than knowledge..." - Albert Einstein. 133."Everything you can imagine is real." - Pablo Picasso. 134."Millions long for immortality who don't know what to do with themselves on a rainy Sunday afternoon." - Susan Ertz. 135."In silence man can most readily preserve his integrity." - Meister Eckhart.
136."Do not envy a sinner; you don't know what disaster awaits him." - Bible. 137."I feel like a tiny bird with a big song!" - Jerry Van Amerongen. 138."I have always found that mercy bears richer fruits than strict justice." - Abraham Lincoln. 139."Many that live deserve death. And some die that deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then be not too eager to deal out death in the name of justice, fearing for your own safety. Even the wise cannot see all ends." - J. R. R. Tolkien. 140."We cannot really love anybody with whom we never laugh." - Agnes Repplier.
141."You cannot be mad at somebody who makes you laugh - it's as simple as that." - Jay Leno. 142."The first duty of a leader is to make himself be loved without courting love. To be loved without 'playing up' to anyone - even to himself." - Andre Malraux. 143."Not a shred of evidence exists in favor of the idea that life is serious." - Brendan Gill. 144."It's not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over." - Edna St. Vincent Millay 145."Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you." - Wally 'Famous' Amos.
146."In the right light, at the right time, everything is extraordinary." - Aaron Rose. 147."There are two kinds of light--the glow that illuminates, and the glare that obscures." - James Thurber. 148."The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself." - Mark Twain. 149."Maybe I wanted to hear it so badly that my ears betrayed my mind in order to secure my heart." - Margaret Cho. 150."Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command." - Alan Watts.
151."Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be." - Anton Chekhov. 152."Love is not enough. It must be the foundation, the cornerstone - but not the complete structure. It is much too pliable, too yielding." - Bette Davis. 153."Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love." - Charles M. Schulz. 154."There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness." - Friedrich Nietzsche. 155."Passion makes the world go round. Love just makes it a safer place." - Ice T.
156."When you have seen as much of life as I have, you will not underestimate the power of obsessive love." - J. K. Rowling. 157."But when a young lady is to be a heroine, the perverseness of forty surrounding families cannot prevent her. Something must and will happen to throw a hero in her way." - Jane Austen. 158."Love is an exploding cigar we willingly smoke." - Lynda Barry. 159."Could you imagine how horrible things would be if we always told others how we felt? Life would be intolerably bearable." - Randy K. Milholland. 160."Some relationships start with fights... But, usually only in romantic comedies. Life's not the movies." - Takayuki Ikkaku.
161."To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human." - Andy and Larry Wachowski. 162."You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty." - Mahatma Gandhi. 163."All married couples should learn the art of battle as they should learn the art of making love. Good battle is objective and honest - never vicious or cruel. Good battle is healthy and constructive, and brings to a marriage the principle of equal partnership." - Ann Landers. 164."There's only one way to have a happy marriage and as soon as I learn what it is I'll get married again." - Clint Eastwood. 165."A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differences." - Dave Meurer.
166."We were happily married for eight months. Unfortunately, we were married for four and a half years." - Nick Faldo. 167."There's no point in being grown up if you can't be childish sometimes." - Doctor Who. 168."When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability... To be alive is to be vulnerable" - Madeleine L'Engle. 169."Sooner or later we all quote our mothers." - Bern Williams. 170."The gods visit the sins of the fathers upon the children." - Euripides.
171."My mother had a great deal of trouble with me, but I think she enjoyed it." - Mark Twain. 172."Passion kept one fully in the present, so that time became a series of mutually exclusive 'nows.'" - Sue Halpern. 173."You see what power is - holding someone else's fear in your hand and showing it to them!" - Amy Tan. 174."To win without risk is to triumph without glory." - Pierre Corneille. 175."Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein.
176."Sanity calms, but madness is more interesting." - John Russell. 177."Revenge is a kind of wild justice, which the more man's nature runs to the more ought law to weed it out." - Sir Francis Bacon. 178."There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness." - Josh Billings. 179."The first duty of a revolutionary is to get away with it." - Abbie Hoffman. 180."There is no moral precept that does not have something inconvenient about it." - Denis Diderot.
181."Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than exposure." - Helen Keller. 182."Security is a kind of death." - Tennessee Williams. 183."If you reveal your secrets to the wind you should not blame the wind for revealing them to the trees." - Kahlil Gibran. 184."The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart." - Saint Jerome. 185."Confidence is the sexiest thing a woman can have. It's much sexier than any body part." - Aimee Mullins.
186."Mortal lovers must not try to remain at the first step; for lasting passion is the dream of a harlot and from it we wake in despair." - C. S. Lewis. 187."But seduction isn’t making someone do what they don’t want to do. Seduction is enticing someone into doing what they secretly want to do already." - Waiter Rant. 188."He who does not know how to be silent will not know how to speak." - Ausonius. 189."There is no need to go to India or anywhere else to find peace. You will find that deep place of silence right in your room, your garden or even your bathtub." - Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. 190."With silence favor me." - Horace.
191."Sincerity is the way of Heaven." - Mencius. 192."When I woke up this morning my girlfriend asked me, 'Did you sleep good?' I said 'No, I made a few mistakes.'" - Steven Wright. 193."Death's brother, Sleep." - Virgil. 194."In the bleak midwinter Frosty wind made moan, Earth stood hard as iron, Water like a stone; Snow had fallen, snow on snow, Snow on snow, In the bleak midwinter, Long ago." - Christina Rossetti. 195."The greatest minds are capable of the greatest vices as well as of the greatest virtues." - Rene Descartes.
196.Author's Choice. 197.Author's Choice. 198.Author's Choice. 199.Author's Choice. 200.Author's Choice.

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.086 Puncture

Jul. 10th, 2007 | 05:20 pm

“Buttttttttttt DADDDDD!” The little bundle of joy, or known to Gerard and Frank as Jamie squealed, her fists pounding on the table as the nurse exited the room, “I don’t wanna!”

Frankie smiled and looked at Gerard, “She is just like her dad,”
“Which one?”
“You, dip-head,”
Frank had learned to control his mouth around his little girl when she ran around calling everyone a shit bag one day at a family party.
“Shut Up I am not afraid of needles anymore!” The elder retorted.
Frank raised and eyebrow at him, highly doubting that the man had completely gotten over his fear.

“DAD!” the little girl whined, grabbing both men’s attention.

Gerard walked over to her, “The doctor has to do this sweetie, if she doesn’t you could get sick,”
“But dad!” she whined again, Gerard pushed a finger to her mouth silencing her.
“But nothing, now, you don’t want to go to the hospital now do you? They poke even more needles in you!”

She shook her head silently.

“Alright, than, you have to get this, ok?”

She nodded.

“Alright, no more complaining?”

She shook her head.

“That’s my girl,” Gerard smiled and backed away.

The nurse came back in my room with her supplies in hand.

“Alright, I promise this wont hurt,” she rubbed alcohol on the inside of the girl’s elbow,. When she was finished she picked up a large rubber band and wrapped it around her arm.

Gerard could tell that she was becoming more scared, “You want daddy to sing for you?”

She nodded and the nurse prepped the needle.

“And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall….” He began.

As the needle entered her skin, she winced and Gerard cringed and buried his head in the crook of Frank’s neck.

Frank saw the disappointed look that her father had stopped singing and continued the song,
“Fall on your tongue like pixie dust just think happy thoughts And we'll fly home We'll fly home You and I We'll fly home”

By the time he was done, the needle was out and the nurse was putting a band aid on the spot she had recently entered.

“See, that wasn’t so bad was it?”

Jamie shook her head.

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052. Lake

Jul. 10th, 2007 | 05:19 pm

His large toe touched the freezing water, causing him to shrink back.

“Come on Iero, its not that cold!” His friend called, beckoning him into the water. It was always like this, Frank sat there debating whether or not it was worth it to get in the freezing cold water, and than Gerard would beg him to come and he would eventually give in, wanting nothing more than the older boy to shut up.

He jumped in from the dock, the cold water shivering his bare chest.

“Happy now Way?”


The pale man wandered over, wrapping his arms around the other’s neck and pecking his lips.

That wasn’t routine, but Frank sure liked it.

He pressed their lips together once more, savoring the taste of the older man’s lips as they parted and allowed for a pink muscle to make their way through them.

He rested his hands on Gerard’s waist as he pressed their wet chests together, eliminating the space between them as they tried to move, limbs sticking together from the mix of water and sweat.

Frank pulled away and rested his forehead against the others.

“Can you say best vacation ever?” he said with a chuckle.

Gerard smiled, and wiped a piece of hair from the others face, tucking it behind his ear.
“Where’s a camera when you need one?”

And with that, Frank’s little sister giggled and ran down the dock.

“Right there,” he chuckled.

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063. Break

Jul. 10th, 2007 | 05:18 pm

His keys clanked against his pants as he exited the building, metal objects in hand.

It was lunch, and damn he was hungry.

“Hey Frank!”

He turned his head to see who was calling him.

It was Gerard; he could recognize that voice and face anywhere. They had worked together for years, taking photos of bands for press, and for years they had gone out for lunch, everyday at the same place. The waitresses had become accustom to their order, them now only having to speak “the usual” to order.

“You want to go somewhere else today?” asked the older man.

“Where were you thinking?”


“Alright, sounds good, lets go,”

Gerard climbed into the passengers seat, Frank into the drivers.

When they arrived there was a table set up for the two, Frank had imagined Gerard had set it up for the two, but why?

As they sat down, Frank mistakenly said the usual, only to confuse the waiter. “Sorry, Caesar salad, minus the chicken,” and closed his menu, handing it to the woman.

Gerard did the same.

They made small talk until their food came.

“Alright Gee, what is all this for?”

“What are you talking about?”


“Well, I was going to save it for dessert…”


“Yeah,” the man picked at his food.


“But since you asked so nicely…”

Frank shoved some of the lettuce into his mouth, waiting for the other to continue.

“Frank, I li-love you,”

“You what?”

“I lo-love you,”

“Gerard have you gone insane?”


Frank waved his hand in front of the others face, “Earth to Gee, I have a girlfriend,”

“I-I know,”

“Okay than…”

“We should get going,” after how badly this has gone, Gerard was eager to get out of there, broken heart in hand.

And with that, they left.

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012. Blizzard

Jul. 10th, 2007 | 05:17 pm

“Gee, it’s cold,” a tattooed man stirred and woke up the boy that was lying next to him.

In fact, the man was far from a boy, with a taller stature and at 30 years of age, 5 years older than the other, who was quite short.

The elder rolled over, his hair falling into his eyes as he yawned. He pecked the other boy’s lips; “You woke me up to tell me this?”

The younger nodded.

“Well, what would you like me to do about it?”

“Go turn on the heat,” said the smaller boy.

"Oh fine,” The man took off his covers. His pale body walked out of the bedroom and into the hallway. It passed the window as it went to go adjust the thermostat, almost blending in with the snow that as falling from the sky. Or, god’s frozen tears as his parents would have told him.

As it walked back to the room to re-join his boyfriend of almost a year, it paused to admire the white blanket that covered the ground and was growing every second. “Hey Frankie, come here babe,” he called.

In a moment the small fragile figure was there at his side, arm wrapped around the pale figures waste.

“It’s snowing,” said the younger boy.

“It’s a blizzard,”

“No school tomorrow,”

The older man giggled and pecked his loves lips.

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001. Hiding

Jul. 10th, 2007 | 05:16 pm

“Oh Frankie…. Frankie where are you….” The man called as he entered the house, groceries in hand.

There was no answer.

“God damnit Frank get your ass out here!”

Still no answer.

He dropped the bags on the kitchen table and went off to find his lover.

“Frank… oh Frankie…”

Frank thought he was beginning to sound more and more like he was calling a dog every time he said his name.

His hand gripped the doorknob to his bedroom and turned slightly before cracking open to find his true love wrapped with a towel around his waist, his hair sopping wet.

Frank smiled and wrapped his arms around the man’s neck, his wet chest clinging to the man’s white shirt, turning it to a light shade of grey.

“You found me,” he whispered in the older man’s ear.

“Well, where is my pot of gold?” The man said, grin growing larger ever second.

“Right here,”

Lips crashed, tongues became entangled, and by the end, Frank wasn’t the only one naked and sobbing wet.

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